Rose McGowan is opening up about her struggles with mental health.
Taking to her Instagram Story on Thursday, the “Charmed” star admitted to being inactive on social media because she had been feeling “deeply sad and very low.”
“Depression is an intense beast,” she wrote in a lengthy post that addressed “depression, trauma” and post-traumatic stress she had been battling with, according to Fox News.
“I speak of my history with a mind that wants me to sleep forever. It blocks the sun for so many of us. If you suffer from this I want you to know you are not alone,” she continued. “I want me to know I’m not alone, no matter how hard my mind whispers thoughts of The sleep 30 hours kind of sad. The crying & don’t know why sad. I just want it to stop sad.”
McGowan likened depression to a beast that at times “holds your head down.
“But what I know is that there will be light again. For all of us. And the day will come when the weight of sadness will disappear. And we will raise our faces to the sun,” her post concluded.
In 2018, following the death by apparent suicide of celebrity chef Anthony Bourdain, McGowan wrote a powerful letter addressing the topic while defending his girlfriend, Italian actress Asia Argento, after rumors emerged that relationship troubles may have spurred him on.
“I know so many around the world thought of Anthony Bourdain as a friend and when a friend dies, it hurts. Many of these people who lost their ‘friend’ are wanting to lash out and blame. You must not sink to that level. Suicide is a horrible choice, but it is that person’s choice,” she wrote.
McGowan explained how Bourdain and Argento had instant chemistry but both struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts. Argento however, “did the work to get help, so she could stay alive and live another day for her and her children.”
Bourdain’s depression meanwhile “didn’t let him, he put down his armor, and that was very much his choice. His decision, not hers. His depression won,” she continued.
“We are asking you to be better, to look deeper, to read and learn about mental illness, suicide and depression before you make it worse for survivors by judging that which we do not understand, that which can never fully be understood,” McGowan added. “Sometimes we are stuck in the unknowable, and that is where we are now, a massive wave of darkness that threatens to swallow everyone in its wake.”
If you are having thoughts of suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) or go to SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources for a list of additional resources.